Chrissaire

Do you ever have that feeling? A feeling of not feeling anything at all? Not happy…not sad. Not contented…yet still you don’t know what you want? You start your day and do the things you have been doing, and none of it seems to excite you anymore..and when you pause to ask what you really want, you realized it’s one tough question that requires deep pondering. And not even a long introspection can even probe the thing you really wanted in life. At the end of the day, you feel like you have not accomplished anything…you are still not happy…you want more…but what is it?

I have no idea where this feeling have originated. One morning, I woke up with a fine mood with the anticipation of a long call from my Christian. It did not happen. Not that he didn’t call- because he actually did. He had never stood me up on anything- either on our scheduled chat dates or phone calls. But this time, the phone call didn’t materialize because of my phone connection. The next day, he attempted another call again. Then came the third and fourth call. None seemed to succeed. He ended up just wasting his credits in his phone or wasting his money with a phonecard he was not even able to use as intended.

We tried the internet this time. Luck can be so harsh at times.

Tags: contentment, internet, luck, phonecard

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